Marlene

Last autumn, a friend told me that she really needed to start looking into her FSJ. She saved me from missing out on a great opportunity because I’d forgotten about it. As I wasn’t yet sure what I wanted to do after graduating from high school, I did some research and quickly realised that I was very interested in doing an FSJ abroad. The time is almost here now: in just under two months, I’ll be flying out.

Throughout the entire preparation period, I made a conscious effort not to form any concrete expectations for my year abroad, as I am well aware of my tendency to do so. This talent often leads to disappointment when reality differs from my imagination, even if I’d love it without any expectations. I wanted to avoid that at all costs. Let’s see if I succeed! 🙂

The most significant moment in my preparation process came when someone brought the concept of white saviourism to my attention during my volunteer service. I had never heard of it before and initially felt the need to defend myself. In hindsight, I realise how unfortunate it was that I reacted that way, but I can also understand why, as I was caught off guard and felt somewhat helpless because I knew absolutely nothing about such an important topic. Fortunately, I was recommended some excellent podcasts on the topic, which helped me to overcome my ignorance.

However, this struggle led me to doubt whether I wanted to continue with my volunteer service. After many conversations and careful consideration, I decided to continue, but set myself some rules and focused on viewing my time abroad as an opportunity for cultural exchange. I decided that I would try to find a role for which I would be qualified here in Germany, even without formal training (I’m very grateful that I won’t be assigned a specific role right away, but will have a say in the matter).

What’s more, when I raised the issue during an online preparatory seminar, Ms Lehrbach assured me that it would be addressed in depth. I am therefore confident that Ems is committed to handling the issue appropriately, for which I am very grateful. Nevertheless, I intend to pay special attention to this during my stay in India.

There are now barely two months left until I fly out, and fortunately, I still don’t have any strong preconceptions about India or my placement. I am approaching the whole thing with an open mind and am very happy to have the opportunity to gain this experience for such a small amount of money. I’m really looking forward to being useful over the next 10 months, developing myself, and growing as a person.